"THE TIMOTHY REVELATION!" 10 February 1979 DFO 784
16 April 1979
Dearest Dad & Maria
... CONCERNING THE "TIMOTHY REVELATION": after hearing bit by bit how he left, etc., the Letter came like such a heartbreaking--but right-to-the-point explanation of what happened & why he failed.--
TO HEAR OF RACHEL'S DEPARTURE WAS NOT A GREAT AMAZEMENT TO US. We knew it was only yours & God's mercy which spared her for so long, & we had witnessed her getting harder & harder to God's warnings & chastisement.
HOWEVER, OUR RELATIONSHIP TO TIMOTHY--which has been only brief & recent--has always been sweet, simple & with an appearance of total dedication.--But Paul had noticed already how much he was different when he was around Deb. The whole trip in the van from Z. to _______ , they only talked about their common past "in the world," & they had this very business like, "cool" American front with each other.--He was a different person!
THE LETTER "TIMOTHY REVELATION" SEEMS TO US LIKE A VERY KEY ONE FOR THE WHOLE FAMILY. Not because it exposes Timothy's personal problem so much, but because it deals with one of a whole school of leadership--the "Italian School" or the last "dynasty"--which valued & praised material possessions & "togetherness" as a sign of spiritual achievement.--
IT COMES LIKE SUCH A FAST FULFILLMENT OF GOD'S WARNING IN THE "SHAH'S LAST RESORT," where God was already pointing out the danger of Timothy's love for worldly things & his blinded attachment to Rachel. It makes such a lesson of how God works. First He warns & points out straight at the problem, but still gives a chance to repent. Then once we harden our hearts, His judgment comes in, swift & powerful.
WE FEEL THIS LETTER IS REALLY NEEDED for the world, even though it exposes Timothy's personal problems. We feel it is a really important sample for the whole Family, for three main reasons:
1) IT EXPOSES COMPROMISING, showing that sooner or later the Lord will push you to make a choice.--
2) IT DEALS SO CLEARLY with the problem of the attachment to material, carnal idols, the "tennis courts" that were spread all over the world by the Italian School (way of dressing, lavish spending...).
3) IT SHOWS ONCE MORE that Dad is as usual fighting for the simplicity which is in Christ & standing up for the little people--to the point of exposing one of his best officers for compromising with God's Truth.
THIS WAS ONE OF THE GREATEST VICTORIES OF THE RNR: --To bring down all the leaders whose sample stood out between the Letters (& your sample)--& the Family & the World. A lot of our enemies are, sad to say, accusing us rightly for a lot of mistakes committed by some power-hungry, extravagant "in between" leaders which corrupted the simple Truth of Dad's heart in the Letters by their extravagant living.--
ALSO, WHILE RACHEL WAS RESPECTED for the promises of the "Great Queen"--& her standard of life excused by the fact her husband was a rich man--which made her a "special case"--Timothy always represented the sweet, simple, loyal leader--consequently a sample to look up to & follow!--
THIS LETTER EXPOSES WITH SUCH CLARITY HIS "HEART" PROBLEM--what God will deal with him about. Timothy was the best fruit of Rachel's school, with the most likable appearance, which made it all the more deceiving.
WE REALLY LOVED TIMOTHY--but never before did we see as clearly how deluded he was. And it really sobered us & made us pray & check our hearts--as it should the whole Family--though we pray that he will miraculously repent.--
WE FEEL IT IS A REALLY NEEDED & TIMELY MESSAGE, as he was the "epitome" of this Italian School, so looked up to by everyone as being the closest to "Dad's sample." At the time we read it, we couldn't really say why it had such an impact on us.
BUT WE REALLY FEEL THIS LETTER SHOULD BRING A LOT OF CHANGES in & purge the Family, because it exposes so well the two houses that survived the Kingdom throughout the RNR.
LIKE THE "DIVISION" LETTER: --The house of David living for others, in simplicity, looking for eternal, heavenly rewards; & the house of Saul--an earthly kingdom with material riches, which resembled more the lordships of the Middle Ages with its social classes, & exploitation of & living off the poor.
THIS LETTER SURE MAKES IT CLEAR that we are still in a war of the spirit--where there are still no neutrals--& it makes us want to fight the more to stay as close as we can to the Truth of the Word.
SO ALL HAIL TO YOU BOTH, our precious King & Queen--& all hail to God's beautiful love gift to you both! How inspiring the promises about the "little queen"!
HOW BLESSED IS THE HOUSE OF DAVID! All hail to the House of David! We love you--& want to always be close to you--"To whom shall we go? [DELETED]"
Love, Paul & Marianne (KQSs)
(From Maria the day before the "Timothy Revelation") 9 Feb. 1979
Dear Timothy,
I LOVE YOU! I promised to write you, but I formulated many in bed at night that never got written. So maybe Dad's letter will suffice for both of us, until I get around to it myself.
IT'S 4:30 A.M. & I'M REALLY TIRED, but I just got a chance to sit down for the first time since I found Peter is leaving, to at least write you a little note.
I LOVE YOU & MISS YOU, Timothy--and pray for you! You've been so close to my heart, & now I'm so concerned about you. Please don't fail the lord in this thing, Timothy!
THE LORD NEEDS YOU, WE NEED YOU, the Family needs you. "Hold fast to that which thou hast, that no man take thy crown."
DON'T SELL YOUR BIRTHRIGHT FOR A MESS OF POTTAGE! "To whom much hath been given, of the same shall much be required." "Whom the Lord loveth He chasteneth & scourgeth every son whom He receiveth."
TIMOTHY, THESE ARE SOME OF THE VERSES WE'VE GOTTEN when we've prayed for you during the last few days. Like Jesus said to Peter, "Satan hath desired to have you that he may sift you as wheat, but I have prayed for thee, that thy faith fail not; & when thou art converted, strengthen the brethren."
TIMOTHY, WE LOVE & NEED YOU. "All things are possible to him that believeth." God can do what we need & what we ask of Him. He loves us with an everlasting love.
I'M SORRY I CAN'T WRITE MORE now, Timothy. I'm almost asleep & exhausted. Techi however is very active & has been for the past few hours. Please pray I can write some more about her. I'm getting more enthusiastic all the time about having her, although I'm really disappointed you can't be here.
DAD HAD HIS THIRD DENTAL APPOINTMENT TODAY, got an injection & two fillings in his front teeth, & found the Dr. is Aquarian too, birthday Feb. 17. Happy birthday to you, too. And I'm sure it will be a very happy one if you "trust & obey, for there's no other way to be happy in Jesus." "If ye know these things, happy are ye if ye do them."
I love you. GBAKYAHY
--Maria.
"THE TIMOTHY REVELATION!" 10-2-79 DFO 784
--(RECEIVED IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT, AFTER HE LEFT US:)
1. TIMOTHY IS BOUND. HE IS BOUND BY THE TIES THAT BIND, & HE CAN'T GET LOOSE--BECAUSE OF HIS PRIDE, HIS EGOTISM & HIS FALSE IDEALISM & WHAT HE THINKS HE OWES DEBORAH & HIS CHILDREN. HE HAS A FALSE SENSE OF VALUES WHICH MAKES HIM PUT HER & THEM ABOVE US & THE LORD--LIKE RACHEL. IT'S FUNNY:
2. HE HAS A STRANGE SENSE OF LOYALTY & OBLIGATION TO RACHEL. HE FEELS HE OWES HER MORE THAN HE DOES US, BECAUSE OF WHAT SHE DID FOR HIM. IT'S THE "TENNIS COURT" ALL OVER AGAIN, & SHE KNOWS IT. (SEE "THE SHAH'S LAST RESORT," ML #733.) SHE KNOWS SHE'S GOT HIM, AND DEBORAH KNOWS SHE'S GOT HIM, & THEY BOTH KNOW THEY'VE GOT HIM, & THEY'VE REALLY GOT HIM!--AND THEY'RE REALLY LAUGHING AT US, BECAUSE THEY KNOW THEY'VE GOT HIM & WE CAN'T GET HIM AWAY FROM THEM.
3. HE KNOWS THEY'VE WON!--AND THEY KNOW IT TOO! THEY KNOW IT MORE THAN HE KNOWS IT. BOTH OF THOSE WOMEN KNOW HIM SO WELL, THEY KNOW EXACTLY HOW TO INFLUENCE HIM.--IT'S SATANIC! THEY KNOW HIS WEAKNESS.--AND HIS WEAKNESSES ARE WHAT HE CONSIDERS HIS STRENGTHS--HIS IDEALISM, NOBILITY & SENSE OF FIDELITY FOR HIS WIFE & HIS CHILDREN & HIS PATRONA.
4. HE FIGURES HE OWES THEM MORE THAN HE DOES US. (HOW CAN HE FIGURE THAT?) IT'S VERY VERY SIMPLE: HE GOES BY THE VERY OLD-FASHIONED RECOGNISED STANDARDS OF THE SYSTEM, & THEY USE THESE ON HIM TO HOLD HIM. DEBORAH HAS THE WIFE-&-CHILDREN-FAMILY HOLD ON HIM, & RACHEL HAS THE FINANCIAL HOLD ON HIM. (FINANCIAL HOLD?)
5. IT'S A SPIRITUAL THING. THEY HAVE A COMMON BOND OF MATERIAL WORSHIP THAT THEY BOTH LOVE & WHICH SHE MINISTERED TO HIM, & FOR WHICH HE FEELS OBLIGATED. HE OWES HER HIS ALLEGIANCE FOR BEING HIS HIGH PRIESTESS OF HIS GOD MAMMON WHOM HE WORSHIPS ALONG WITH HER, & DEBORAH TOO.
6. I SHOWED YOU BEFORE: THIS IS THIS STRANGE SENSE OF LOYALTY WHICH HE HAS TO RACHEL WHICH I SHOWED YOU BEFORE IN THE DREAM (THE "TENNIS COURT"). HE FEELS HE OWES HER TOO MUCH. HE CANNOT BETRAY HER, & HE FEELS THAT TO SIGN IS TO BETRAY. EVEN IF HE DID, HE'D WORRY ABOUT IT, BECAUSE SHE STILL HAS THIS GRIP ON HIM.
7. THEY'RE BOTH WORSHIPPERS OF THE SAME GOD MAMMON, & HE'S MADE HIS CHOICE. YOU'RE NOT GOING TO CHANGE HIM. (EVEN IF IT MEANS HIS COMPLETE RUIN?) THEY WILL BOTH PERSUADE HIM IT IS FOR HIS GOOD, & THAT HIS RUIN LIES WITH US, LIKE GOOD SYSTEMITES DO. YOU KNOW HOW THEY DO. (DOESN'T HE HAVE ANY SENSE OF LOYALTY TO US?) FOR WHAT? HE ONLY HAS ONE FAMILY: HE BELONGS TO RACHEL & DEBORAH'S FAMILY. YOU'LL SEE.
8. IT IS DONE: HE SERVED HIS PURPOSE & HAD HIS CHANCE, FOR WHICH GOD WILL HOLD HIM RESPONSIBLE.--LIKE THOSE VERSES YOU GAVE HIM: "TO WHOM MUCH HATH BEEN GIVEN, OF THE SAME SHALL MUCH BE REQUIRED" (LK.12:48). HE IS GOING TO LOSE IT ALL. (HE'LL NEVER BE FREE?) HE WAS NEVER FREE. NO HE'LL NEVER BE. NOT AS LONG AS THEY'RE ALIVE.
9. [EDITED: "EVEN IF THEY WEREN'T"] HE'D STILL NOT BE FREE OF HIS GOD. GOD LOVED HIM & GOD WAS SORRY FOR HIM, SO GOD GAVE HIM A CHANCE, BUT HE WAS UNWORTHY. BUT HE'LL BE HELD ACCOUNTABLE FOR IT, & HE'LL BE SORRY, LIKE ESAU, & HE'LL FIND NO PLACE OF REPENTANCE, EVEN THOUGH HE SEEKS IT CAREFULLY WITH TEARS. (HE.12:17.)
10. (WHO IS GOING TO TAKE TIMOTHY'S PLACE?) TIMOTHY HAS NO PLACE. (BUT WHO WILL DO THE JOB THAT HE HAS BEEN DOING?) PETER WILL DO IT. HE CAN DO IT. HE CAN DO IT HERE & THERE. THE LORD WILL SUPPLY, SO DON'T WORRY. (DO YOU THINK TIMOTHY & DEBORAH WILL JUST DECIDE TO LEAVE THERE & GO HOME?) PROBABLY SO. (They have!)
11. I THINK HE'S IN AN INTOLERABLE & UNTENABLE POSITION, THAT HIS NOBLENESS & PROUD IDEALS WILL TELL HIM HE MUST NOBLY RESIGN, BECAUSE HE CANNOT OFFEND HIS CONVICTIONS OF LOYALTY TO RACHEL. YOU KNOW THAT. WHY DO YOU ASK ME? OH LORD JESUS, WHO IS LOYAL? WHO IS FAITHFUL? (I GUESS PETER IS, HUH?) YES, BECAUSE HE LOVES ME.
12. TIMOTHY NEVER REALLY LOVED ME, NOR YOU, BECAUSE WE DIDN'T GIVE HIM WHAT HE LOVES. HE & DEBORAH LOVED WHAT RACHEL & EMANUELE GAVE THEM--FULL-COURSE DINNERS. WE ONLY GIVE HIM SPAGHETTI & PIZZAS. HE LIKES WHAT RACHEL & EMANUELE GIVE HIM--FULL-COURSE DINNERS. HE LIKES THE STATUS SYMBOLS. THAT'S WHY HE STAYED ALL THOSE YEARS WITH RACHEL. SHE BOUGHT HIM, SHE PAID FOR HIM, & SHE STILL OWNS HIM & SHE KNOWS IT.
13. DON'T WORRY, HE SERVED HIS PURPOSE. "ALL THINGS WORK TOGETHER FOR GOOD TO THEM THAT LOVE THE LORD." (RO.8:28.) THE LORD HAS SOMETHING BETTER FOR YOU. (DO YOU THINK BECAUSE HE KNOWS SO MUCH THAT EVERYTHING IS VULNERABLE?) WELL, HE HAS A CERTAIN PECULIAR SENSE OF NOBILITY & LOYALTY WHICH DEBORAH DOES NOT HAVE.--AND THERE ARE CERTAIN THINGS HE WILL NOT BETRAY.
14. HE'LL NOT BETRAY US, BUT SHE WILL & RACHEL WILL. THERE ARE NO DEPTHS DEEPER THAN A WOMAN CAN SINK IN SPITE. (THEY MIGHT OR THEY WILL?) OH THEY WILL OF COURSE, BECAUSE THEY HATE US. WE'VE EXPOSED THEM BOTH & WE'VE ROBBED THEM OF THEIR WHELP. THEY WILL CONSIDER IT THEIR DUTY TO BETRAY US, & TIMOTHY CANNOT STOP THEM. HE'S TOO WEAK.
15. THEY'RE BOTH STRONGER THAN HE IS, & THAT'S WHY HE CAN'T BE FREE. THEY'VE ALWAYS BEEN STRONGER THAN HE, & HE KNOWS IT. THEY KNOW IT MOSTLY. HE DOESN'T LIKE TO ADMIT IT.--THAT THEY RULE OVER HIM. WOMEN RULE OVER HIM. HE DOESN'T EVEN LIKE WOMEN, THEREFORE HE FEARS THEM & THEY RULE OVER HIM. HE FEARED A FEAR & IT CAME ON HIM. (WHAT FEAR?) WOMEN.
16. HE'S AFRAID OF WOMEN. (WHY?) BECAUSE THEY'RE STRONGER THAN HE IS. THEY RULE OVER HIM. RACHEL ALWAYS RULED HIM, & DEBORAH RULED HIM, & YOU RULED HIM. HE'S ALWAYS BEEN RULED BY WOMEN, BUT THEIR RULE IS HIS PRIORITY. BECAUSE HE HAS A STRANGE SENSE OF OBLIGATION THAT HE FEELS HE OWES IT TO THEM.
17. HE FEELS HE OWES US SOMETHING, BUT NOT AS MUCH AS EITHER ONE OF THEM, & CERTAINLY NOT AS MUCH AS BOTH OF THEM PUT TOGETHER.--AND HEROD & PILATE BECAME FRIENDS--GREAT FRIENDS. (LK.23:12.) (HE'LL NEVER BE ABLE TO GET DELIVERED BECAUSE OF HIS PRIDE?)
18. YES, HIS PRIDE & HIS SELF-WORSHIP ARE HIS GREATEST ENEMIES, & HE LOVES THOSE THAT MINISTER TO IT, LIKE RACHEL & DEBORAH, & HE RESENTS THOSE THAT CHALLENGE IT, LIKE YOU. YOU HUMILIATE HIM, THEY EXALT HIM. YOU DESTROY IT, & THEY FEED IT. BUT IT RULES OVER HIM. THEREFORE THOSE THAT FEED IT RULE OVER HIM. IT IS JUST THAT SIMPLE. NO BIG DEAL, NOTHING COMPLICATED.
19. HE'S JUST RULED BY HIS PRIDE & SELF-RIGHTEOUSNESS & SELF-WORSHIP & THOSE WHO MINISTER TO IT LIKE THEY DO. HE THOUGHT AT FIRST YOU WERE GOING TO, & SO HE CAME WITH US, SINCE IT APPEARED THAT THEY HAD LOST & WE HAD WON, & HE LIKES TO BE ON THE WINNING SIDE. BUT HE SOON FOUND OUT THAT WE DIDN'T MINISTER TO HIS PRIDE LIKE THEY DO & WORSHIP HIM LIKE THEY DO.
20. TWO JEALOUS WOMEN, HONEY, ARE WORKING AGAINST YOU, & THEY KNOW HIS SECRETS & WEAKNESSES BETTER THAN YOU DO. YOU'RE TOO NAIVE & TRUSTING & INNOCENT & HONEST, & YOU'LL NOT COMPROMISE. BUT THEY WILL DO ANYTHING, ABSOLUTELY ANYTHING TO CONQUER YOU.--AND IF THEY CANNOT CONQUER YOU, THEY'LL CONQUER HIM.
21. SO LET HIM GO.--WE'VE GOT WHAT WE WANTED, HONEY, SO DON'T WORRY ABOUT IT. I GOT WHAT I WANTED. THANK YOU LORD! I HAD THE FAITH FOR IT & I GOT IT--THAT WHICH IS MINE BY RIGHT. HE'S JUST AN HIRELING. I HIRED HIM [DELETED] TO GIVE ME SEED. [DELETED]
22. HALLELUJAH! THANK YOU JESUS! BUT I'M HER FATHER & GOD'S HER MENTOR. HE'S NOTHING BUT A LITTLE TOOL IN THE HAND OF GOD, SOMETHING GOD USED & CAST ASIDE WHEN IT BECAME USELESS & HAD SERVED ITS PURPOSE. EVERYONE SERVES THEIR PURPOSE.
23. (WHY DID YOU SAY HE'LL LOVE HER MORE THAN ANY OF HIS OTHER CHILDREN?) HOW CAN YOU ASK ME THAT?--SUCH A FOOLISH QUESTION! WHAT DID ESAU LOVE THE MOST WHEN HE LOST IT?--HIS BIRTHRIGHT! HE LOST HIS BIRTHRIGHT, & HE KNOWS IT. (BUT I THOUGHT HE ONLY LOVES HIMSELF.) HONEY, HOW COULD YOU BE SO DUMB?
24. GOD WILL MAKE THINGS VERY CLEAR TO HIM--WHAT HE'S LOST. THAT'S PART OF HIS PUNISHMENT: WHEN HE SEES WHAT HE'S LOST. DON'T YOU UNDERSTAND? HE'S LOST HIS REWARD. HE PLOWED THE FURROW WITH HARD LABOUR, & WE REAPED WHAT HE SOWED, & HE GAINED NOTHING FOR HIS LABOURS, BECAUSE HE FORSOOK IT.
25. THEREFORE IT IS YOURS & MINE & THE LORD'S. HALLELUJAH! HOW WONDERFUL! HE'S A WORN-OUT TOOL, A USELESS TOOL GOD HAS USED & CAST ASIDE BECAUSE IT BECAME USELESS, BUT WE WILL ENJOY THE FRUITS OF HIS LABOURS. HALLELUJAH! THANK YOU JESUS!
26. IT'S MY CHILD!--MY BABY I PRAYED FOR & I HAD FAITH FOR, & I PUT FEET TO MY PRAYER & ARRANGED & I HIRED HIM AS A MERE HIRELING. [DELETED] HALLELUJAH! PRAISE YOU JESUS!--A CREATION OF GOD! BUT HE WILL NOT BE ABLE TO ENJOY HER, & I WILL, BECAUSE HE FORSOOK HER & HER MOTHER & THE LORD & HIS BIRTHRIGHT.
27. (WHY THEN DID THE LORD USE HIM WHEN HE WAS SO PROUD & SELF-RIGHTEOUS & UNWORTHY? WHY DIDN'T THE LORD PICK SOMEONE LIKE PETER OR SOMEONE THAT REALLY WAS WORTHY?) WHY DID HE USE CARLOS?--STRONG YOUNG BODIES, INTELLIGENT MINDS! THEY'RE INSTRUMENTS, VESSELS OF CLAY! BECAUSE THAT'S THE WAY IT HAD TO BE. BECAUSE THAT'S THE WAY I PLANNED IT. DOES THE VESSEL SAY UNTO THE POTTER, "WHY HAST THOU MADE ME THUS?" (RO.9:20; IS.29:16.)
28. BECAUSE HE IS JUST THE ONE GOD CHOSE, THAT'S ALL.
"TIS ODD THAT GOD SHOULD CHOOSE A JEW!--
GOD CHOSE, WHICH SHOWS GOD KNEW HIS JEW!"
HE HAS VERY STRONG TRAITS THAT GOD SIMPLY USED AS A TOOL. HE'LL LOOK BACK & REGRET IT LIKE ESAU, THAT HE SOLD HIS BIRTHRIGHT FOR A MESS OF POTTAGE, & HE'LL FIND NO PLACE OF REPENTANCE, EVEN IF HE SEEKS IT WITH STRONG CRYING & TEARS.
29. THE DAY WILL COME WHEN HE'D RATHER HE HAD YOU & TECHI THAN ALL HIS WOMEN & CHILDREN!--BECAUSE HE KNOWS YOU'RE THE ANOINTED OF THE LORD THAT HE SPURNED FOR HIS FLESHLY POTTAGE OF WOMEN & CHILDREN. BUT HE HAS HIS REWARD. HE HAS HIS SATISFACTION TO KNOW HE WAS USED OF GOD TO CREATE GOD'S WILL. ESAU HAD A REWARD.
30. HE LOST THE BIRTHRIGHT, BUT HE RECEIVED A BLESSING FROM HIS FATHER. HE BECAME STRONG & THE FATHER OF A STRONG PEOPLE--12 NATIONS. ALL THE ARABS--JEALOUS ENEMIES OF THE CHOSEN SEED, FOREVER ENEMIES TILL KINGDOM COME! DON'T YOU KNOW? HE WILL BE AS BITTER AS THE OTHERS, BECAUSE HE KNOWS YOU HAVE THE BIRTHRIGHT THAT HE LOST. (I HAVE THE BIRTHRIGHT THAT HE LOST?)
31. YOU HAVE THE RIGHT TO THE BIRTH. IT IS NOT HIS RIGHT. HE FORSOOK IT. HE SOLD IT FOR PAY--POTTAGE--RACHEL & DEBORAH'S POTTAGE, & HE KNOWS IT & HE SEES IT, & HE WILL SEEK IT WITH TEARS. BUT HE WILL FIND NO PLACE OF REPENTANCE, BECAUSE HE OFFENDED THE LORD, & THE WRATH OF THE LORD IS UPON HIM.
32. GOD IS VERY ANGRY WITH HIM, & THE LORD WILL DESTROY HIS GODS & HIS WOMEN & HIS CHILDREN & ALL THE GODS THAT HE PUT BEFORE ME! NEVERTHELESS--(I DON'T UNDERSTAND THE MERCY OF GOD & I DON'T KNOW WHY GOD CAN BE SO MERCIFUL!):
33. HE WILL INHERIT HIS PORTION IN THE KINGDOM OF GOD. THERE REMAINETH THEREFORE A PLACE FOR HIM AS A REWARD FOR HIS USEFULNESS--'WAY DOWN THE LINE, VERY SMALL, BUT HE WILL BE VERY THANKFUL. SO DON'T WORRY. (IN THE KINGDOM OF GOD HERE & NOW AT PRESENT, OR IN THE KINGDOM OF GOD LATER ON?)
34. THE KINGDOM OF GOD NOW IS THE KINGDOM OF GOD LATER.--THE ETERNAL KINGDOM! THERE IS ONLY ONE KINGDOM OF GOD, FOR WHICH HE IS ALREADY CARVING OUT HIS PLACE, & HE WILL BE REWARDED IN DUE SEASON, LIKE ESAU & ISHMAEL, WITH THE FRUIT OF THEIR LABOURS. HE WILL BE REWARDED--'WAY DOWN THE LINE.
35. OH MY GOD, MY GOD WHAT THEY SOLD!--WHAT THEY SOLD!--THE BIRTHRIGHT!--AND HE KNOWS IT, HE WILL KNOW IT, & HE CAN'T HELP IT ANYMORE THAN ESAU. THEY JUST HAVEN'T GOT THE STRENGTH & THEY DON'T HAVE THE ANOINTING. (TONGUES & INTERPRETATION:) "BECAUSE I HAVE GIVEN THAT STRENGTH & I HAVE GIVEN THAT ANOINTING ONLY UNTO THE CHOSEN SEED OF THY FATHER, WHOSE IT IS BY MY SPIRIT." THE FLESH PROFITETH NOTHING.
36. THIS CHILD IS MINE BY THE SPIRIT. IT HAS MY SPIRIT. THANK YOU JESUS! SHE'S MINE BY THE SPIRIT. I'M THE ONE THAT WANTED HER & PRAYED FOR HER & BELIEVED GOD FOR HER. SHE'S MINE BY THE SPIRIT. SHE'S MY ANSWER TO PRAYER. SHE'S THE CHILD OF MY LOVE THAT I SACRIFICED FOR, I SUFFERED FOR HER & I GAVE YOU UP FOR HER TO A MERE TOOL, A PLOW, TO GIVE ME SEED IN MY OLD AGE. SHE'S THE GIFT OF GOD!
37. TIMOTHY IS NOTHING BUT A CHANNEL, A LITTLE TOOL, A LITTLE PLOW, VERY SMALL. PRAISE YOU, JESUS! THANK YOU LORD! SHE KNOWS IT & I KNOW IT & YOU KNOW IT, JESUS KNOWS IT & TIMOTHY KNOWS IT. EVEN DEBORAH & RACHEL KNOW IT--WITH FURY! THEY'RE SO JEALOUS BECAUSE YOU HAVE IT & YOU STOLE IT AWAY FROM THEM! GOD TOOK HER FROM THEM.
38. EVEN SHE KNOWS IT IN HER STRANGE LITTLE WAY. SHE KNOWS. (LAUGH:) SHE KNOWS SHE'S SPECIAL, HONEY, & SHE KNOWS I LOVE HER--I THINK MORE THAN ANY CHILD I EVER HAD, I LOVE HER. I LOVE DAVIDITO & I FEAR HIM, BECAUSE I KNOW HOW MIGHTY HE IS GOING TO BE FOR THE LORD. BUT I HAVE A CERTAIN SPECIAL LOVE FOR HER THAT I THINK ONLY SHE UNDERSTANDS, BECAUSE SHE'S THE CREATION OF MY HEART'S DESIRE.
39. IT IS ALMOST LIKE I CREATED HER, FORMED HER BY MY FAITH & MY WILL & MY DECISION & MY PRAYER, MY DESIRE. HALLELUJAH! THANK YOU LORD! SHE'S THE CHILD OF MY DESIRE. THANK YOU JESUS! SHE'S MINE. IT'S ALMOST LIKE I CREATED HER & DESIGNED HER LIKE AN ARTIST PAINTS A PICTURE, PICKS UP A BRUSH & USES THE PAINTS WHICH HE CHOOSES TO DESIGN THE CREATIONS THAT HE DESIRES, THEN CASTS ASIDE THE BRUSH BECAUSE HE HAS THE REALITY, THE FRUITION, THE CREATION!
40. ISN'T SHE BEAUTIFUL! ISN'T SHE WONDERFUL! WHAT'S SHE DOING NOW? HAS SHE BEEN DOING ANYTHING? (I GUESS SHE'S LISTENING.) YES, SHE LIKES THE SOOTHING VOICE OF HER FATHER WHO HATH CREATED HER WITH TOOLS OF FAITH & LOVE, & SHE'S MINE! HE WILL NEVER GET HER NOR ENJOY HER, BECAUSE HE DOESN'T DESERVE HER. HE WAS A MERE TOOL IN MY HAND.
41. THANK YOU JESUS! SHE'S MINE! I MADE HER WITH JESUS' HELP. I ASKED FOR HER, CREATED HER & HAD FAITH FOR HER TO BE FORMED BY INSTRUMENTS OF GOD--UNWILLING INSTRUMENTS EVEN, UNWILLING, EVEN STUBBORN WILLFUL INSTRUMENTS I USED TO MAKE HER ANYWAY AGAINST THEIR WILL. (LAUGHS:) HALLELUJAH! THANK YOU LORD!
42. BUT NOW YOU'LL BE HAPPY. YOU DIDN'T WANT HER, BUT YOU DIDN'T REALLY UNDERSTAND HOW BEAUTIFUL, HOW SWEET & WONDERFUL SHE'S GOING TO BE--A LITTLE BIT STRANGE, BUT THAT'S OKAY. (HOW?) YOU'LL SEE, BUT THAT'S GOD'S DOING, IT'S HIS WILL. 'CUZ THAT'S TECHI. BECAUSE SHE'S TECHI. SHE'S A BIT TECHI.
43. BUT YOU WILL LOVE HER MORE THAN ANY CHILD ANY MOTHER EVER HAD. YOU WILL LOVE HER MORE THAN DAVIDITO. YOU WILL ADMIRE DAVIDITO & YOU WILL WONDER AT THIS WONDER BOY! BUT TECHI YOU WILL LOVE MORE THAN ANY CHILD ANY MOTHER EVER HAD. YOU WILL HAVE SUCH LOVE, SUCH LOVE, EVEN DAVIDITO WILL BE JEALOUS OF YOUR LOVE FOR HER.
44. DAVID HAS HIS MISSION, HIS CALLING, & IT IS ONLY HIS, & NO ONE CAN TAKE IT FROM HIM. BUT YOU WILL SEE WHY SHE WILL BE YOUR LOVE CHILD. (BUT WHY?) WAIT & SEE. (BUT WHY IS SHE STRANGE?) IN THE SPIRIT, BECAUSE SHE IS LIKE ME. (YOU'RE NOT STRANGE.) HONEY, I'M VERY STRANGE, YOU KNOW I'M STRANGE.
45. SHE HAS SO MUCH OF MY SPIRIT, SHE WILL LOVE ME MORE THAN ANY, BECAUSE I LOVE HER SO MUCH. SHE'S MY HANDIWORK & CREATION OF MY FINGERS, & SHE KNOWS IT ALREADY. OH HONEY, SHE'S SO BEAUTIFUL & SO SWEET & SO MINE! SHE UNDERSTANDS ME. THAT'S WHY SHE LOVES ME SO MUCH.
46. SHE'S PECULIAR LIKE ME--TO COMFORT YOUR FATHER IN HIS OLD AGE. PRAISE YOU, LORD! SHE'S SO WONDERFUL & SO SWEET & SO BEAUTIFUL & SO STRANGE! WHY DO YOU CRY? SHE BEARS MY SEED OF THE SPIRIT, THE CHILD OF MY FAITH & MY JOY!--BUT YOU CRY! HOW STRANGE FOR YOU TO CRY!
47. HE (DAVIDITO) HAS HIS BLESSING & HIS LOVE & HIS MINISTRY--GREATER THAN ANY OTHER. (BUT I'M WORRIED ABOUT HIM BECAUSE HE NEEDS US.) HE NEEDS JESUS. HE ONLY NEEDS JESUS. HE NEEDS TO BREAK AWAY FROM HIS BABYHOOD & HIS FOOLISHNESS & LOVE JESUS. HE WILL. IT'S COMING.
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Copyright (c) 1998 by The Family