LET'S TALK ABOUT JESUS!                   DFO 20            12/70

         1. (MARIA: WE HAD JUST RECEIVED SOME REPORTS IN THE MAIL OF SOME OF THE CONFESSION SESSIONS you've been having at home & I was halfway through reading them to Dad late one night, while he was drinking a little wine before going to sleep--WHEN HE SAID HE COULDN'T STAND TO HEAR ANY MORE. He didn't want to listen to the Devil any longer, he was sick & tired of hearing about it! He took the bottle in his hand--& looking at it, began to speak, & I knew it was the Holy Spirit! So I grabbed my pen, & here's what He had to say:)
         2. WINE IS LIKE JESUS! THIS LITTLE BIT OF SPIRITS IS LIKE THE HOLY SPIRIT! YOU GET SO FULL OF IT--YOU DON'T EVEN WORRY ABOUT YOURSELF ANY MORE; you forget yourself & you just are happy in spite of yourself!--And all you can think about is you're HAPPY & you don't even care! It helps you forget the past & yourself & get your mind off your own damn ass & just be happy! 'Cause WHO THE HELL CARES WHAT A HEEL YOU ARE? Everybody's just such a damn heel THEMSELVES they don't want to hear what a heel YOU are! They're discouraged enough themselves without hearing about a failure like YOU! They want to hear about something better--like JESUS!
         3. WHEN PETER STARTED LOOKING AT HIMSELF, HE STARTED TO SINK! It was no use! If you start looking at YOURSELF you're going to SINK SINK SINK, when you THINK THINK THINK, 'cause you STINK STINK STINK!!! You HAVE to KEEP YOUR EYES ON JESUS! You've GOT to BE SO FULL OF JESUS--LIKE BEING FULL OF WINE-that you're so high, so drunk, so freaked out on Jesus you don't care what the hell happens! All you know is you love Jesus--Jesus loves you!--And that's all that matters. That's a FACT! Like being drunk!--You're so full of wine, you don't CARE what kind of fool you've been! You're just going to forget everything else! You're going to DROWN YOURSELF IN JESUS LIKE THE DRUNK DROWNS HIS SORROWS IN DRINK! Who the hell CARES what a stupid idiot you've been?
         4. THEY SAY THE DEFINITION OF A BORE IS SOMEBODY WHO TALKS ABOUT HIMSELF WHEN I WANT TO TALK ABOUT MYSELF! I think the WORST bore is the kind that talks about HIMSELF when we OUGHT to be talking about JESUS! We ought to be so drunk on the Holy Spirit that we don't care what the hell kind of character YOU'VE been or what YOU'VE done! We just want to hear about JESUS! Who the hell cares about YOU? I'm a hell of a mess MYSELF & I don't want to hear what a hell of a mess YOU are! I want to hear about some guy that MADE it--like JESUS! I want to FORGET about myself. I can't even stand to THINK about ME! I'M TERRIBLE! I can't stand the SIGHT any more! I want to hear about JESUS!
         5. LET'S TALK ABOUT SOMETHING FUNNY, HUH?--SOMETHING CHEERFUL & HOPEFUL & BRIGHT instead of blood & guts & gore & scalpels & doctors & medicine & operating tables! Ick! I'd rather hear a guy talking about the great time he had with the GALS, than about his damn OPERATION, wouldn't you? I'd rather hear him talk about something funny or cheerful or hopeful or positive!--Anything but about his hell of an operation! I've got enough of my own!
         6. FOR GOD'S SAKE, LET'S LOOK AT JESUS! I'M SICK OF YOU & I'M SICKER OF LOOKING AT MYSELF. I'd just as soon bop you over the bean with JESUS! Let's get knocked out on the LORD, huh? It helps make you forget what a damn fool you are & how the hell you feel & you just think life is wonderful--because you're so full of JESUS! It's the TRUTH!
         7. I WANNA GET MY JOY OUT OF JESUS! I WANNA FIND MY HAPPINESS IN HIS SPIRIT! I'm sick of hearing about your damn rebellious, contrary, filthy spirit!--I've got enough of my own. I want to hear about the HOLY SPIRIT--the only One that can help us both! I wanna hear about JESUS--the One Who DIDN'T make any mistakes & the One that loves us IN SPITE of ours!--And THAT can help us not to make any MORE!
         8. TO HELL WITH YOU! AND TO HELL WITH ME! WE'RE A HELL OF A MESS, AND WE DESERVE IT! THE ONLY HOPE WE'VE GOT IS DROWNING OURSELVES IN JESUS & filling ourselves with the Holy Spirit & getting so drunk on the Lord that we don't care what you're like or what I'm like!--All we care about is JESUS--& all we want to do is drink JESUS--get drunk on JESUS--talk JESUS--get full of JESUS so you can forget all that shit--forget the things that are behind! It's a lot of BEhind! I don't wanna hear about it!
         9. I WANNA PRESS FORWARD TO THE THINGS THAT ARE BEFORE & I WANNA GET HIGH ON THE CALLING OF JESUS--DRUNK ON THE SPIRIT-FULL OF THE WINE OF SALVATION--so I can forget what a hell of a mess I am! I WANNA GET SO FULL OF JESUS I CAN'T EVEN REMEMBER WHO YOU ARE OR WHAT WE'RE HERE FOR--EXCEPT FOR JESUS! All I wanna remember is JESUS LOVES ME, THIS I KNOW, for the BIBLE tells me so!
         10. WHEN ALL YOU WANNA TALK ABOUT IS YOUR DAMN SELF & YOUR DAMN SINS YOU HAVEN'T HAD ENOUGH OF JESUS!--'Cause if you were drunk with the SPIRIT you wouldn't even REMEMBER all that!
         11. YOU DON'T EVEN COUNT! JESUS IS ALL THAT MATTERS! IF YOU'RE STILL TALKING ABOUT YOUR SHITTY SELF YOU'RE NOT DRUNK ENOUGH ON JESUS! You're not high enough on the HOLY GHOST or you wouldn't even know you existed! NOT I, BUT CHRIST! "But it is not I that live, but Christ!" If you keep talking about your damn stupid SELF, you're not DEAD yet! You need to get so drunk on the SPIRIT that all you want to do is talk about JESUS!--And to HELL with YOU! THAT'S where YOU belong! You've gotta get so DEAD DRUNK on JESUS that you don't even FEEL any more!
         12. DRINK YOURSELF UNDER THE TABLE ON THE SPIRIT TO WHERE YOU DON'T EVEN CARE IF ANYBODY KICKS YOU--you're happy, you're so full of HIS wine! All you care about is another shot of JESUS! Let's get drunk on the SPIRIT! WHO THE HELL CARES HOW BAD YOU SCORE OR HOW BAD I SCORE OR WHO WINS OR LOSES? LET'S JUST GET STONED ON JESUS!--So we don't care WHO wins or loses as long as we have JESUS! I am determined to see NO man among you save JESUS ONLY! Get out of my sight! I'm SICK of YOU! Let me see JESUS! I can't stand to look at YOU! Show me JESUS! Give me a drink of JESUS! Give me a shot of the HOLY Spirit! To hell with your stupid self & all your damn sins! Let's send'm to Hell where they came from! Let's just lift up JESUS! Let's talk about JESUS! Let's get full of the SPIRIT--full of JESUS!
         13. I JUST WANNA HEAR ABOUT JESUS! LET'S JUST HEAR WHAT JESUS HAS DONE--IN you & THROUGH you & BY you & ABOUT you & TO you & WITH you & FOR you--& all about JESUS! Whatever it is, I just want to hear about JESUS!
         14. I'M SICK OF HEARING ABOUT YOU--AS MUCH AS I LOVE YOU. I'm tired of fucking you & your damn sins! I want to lay up with Jesus! I wanna get loved by the HOLY Ghost! I WANNA GET FUCKED BY THE BRIDEGROOM! I'M SICK OF GETTING ALL FUCKED UP WITH YOU. I wanna get loved up with JESUS! Let's quit being HOMOS--all messed up with EACH OTHER! Let's just save ourselves for HIM, huh? Let's just give ourselves to HIM!
         15. LET'S TALK ABOUT JESUS! If HE'S lifted up, HE'LL draw us all to HIM! Let's just look at JESUS, huh? I don't care to see what YOU look like!--I look bad enough myself! LET'S TAKE A LOOK AT JESUS! LOOK & LIVE! LIFE FOR A LOOK! LOOKING AT YOU & ME KILLS ME! I wanna look at JESUS! That's my only Hope of Living! YOU KILL me! Only JESUS makes me wanna live!

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